A quick and random update

It's been a while since I've done some reflection on this space and I guess today is the day that I will finally do so, because I told myself to try to stop at least once a month, not to smell the roses like everyone says, but for a self catch-up session.

So it's already October and wow time flies as fast as I can type this sentence. It's been two-and-a-half months since I returned to Singapore, but it feels like at least four. I'm also approximately halfway through my semester, which means that I am closer to examinations. That doesn't bother me much though because after exams there will be winter vacation! It is going to be one exciting end-of-the-year.

Lately, I've been pretty impatient and there are so many things that I really look forward to in the near future. Since I came back from Seoul, I decided to be more proactive and actually take steps to do something with my life in hope of making it more fruitful/meaningful. So far, things are falling into place and I couldn't be happier. I still struggle to find a balance between everything that is happening (and what I have planned for), but I will face everything with a strong heart bursting with enthusiasm and energy, taking one thing at a time. Hopefully, everything will go according to plan.

Anyway, this is pretty strange but I've been into being unhealthy these days. I don't know if it's because I don't have much time to exercise anymore so I only go to the gym once a week (as opposed to two to three times a week, even four sometimes, back in Seoul and before that too), resulting in me feeling lazy to go to the gym. I think it has been years since I've felt lazy to exercise. It has also been years since I've eaten unhealthy food regularly. I never really used to eat much fried/oily/fatty food much because I just don't fancy it and sometimes it makes me feel sick but recently I've been craving roti prata or carrot cake or anything fried almost every day, and I fulfill my cravings. I have so much fried food I wake up with a sore throat everyday. Is there something wrong with me? Don't give me answers like "you've been healthy for too long so now you're going crazy" hahaha I am serious I will ignore you for life

There were more things I thought about this week but it is three in the morning so I am forcing myself to sleep. So much for adjusting my body clock...

I earned some money and motivation today!

I love working with MGP. My bosses are amazing (so are the quality of the clothes)! They treat their staff really well. I take my job there seriously and I always take their feedback/comments into consideration so I can improve to play my role better. I may not their best choice, but they've always kept me so I think working towards my best for them is the least I can do. They're like my older siblings! I'm not even offended when my boss teases me about being meaty or asks me to go exercise. I always take it as positive motivation.

Speaking of exercise, I know I haven't been taking my fitness seriously in the past two weeks... But I don't regret it. The past two weeks were extremely well spent over good food and good company. I know times like these will be rare now that school is starting. I also took a rest week because my ankle was hurting. There is a time for everything. So this week I will resume my regime and I am excited to challenge myself all over again. Typing this here makes me more determined to stay as disciplined as I can.

You know they always say we should enjoy the process instead of just focusing on the results. It's true. Exercising can be such a drag if you don't enjoy it. I didn't start out loving every single waking moment in the gym when I first started going to the gym last year, but the enjoyment was acquired during my lonely gym sessions for four months during exchange. Listening to music during workouts can really make me enjoy them a lot. My body prefers moving when there's music hahaha, probably because I used to dance a lot. So I guess to each her own!

One goal, many ways to get there. (Find yours)

Friday and Saturday

I had a lovely weekend. On Friday night I met up with my friends whom I went for exchange with for supper. We had prata and tau huey. I was not intending to have much for supper because of a shoot on Sunday, but in the happy company of my friends and all that delicious food in front of me, it's difficult to reject. I didn't regret it anyway, especially not the kaya prata. Thinking about it makes me wish I had one in front of me right now.

Saturday was pretty simple. I feel like I suffer from short-term memory loss because right now I can't remember what I did before I went to the gym and having Blackball for dessert.

Going to the gym is always so therapeutic. I used to dance a lot in my younger years as a teenager, then I did yoga for a period of time, then fitness classes... Right now I exercise mainly in the gym. When I was about fourteen, there was a short period of time when I went to the gym and swam pretty regularly, for vanity reasons probably, but I stopped because I thought weights were making me look big. I started going back to the gym last June, mainly due to the influence of Javin, feeling sluggish from not exercising as regularly as I used to and wanting to challenge myself. Javin also promised that weights will not make me look big haha.

While I was still in Singapore, going to the gym was a way to spend time with Javin amidst studying, projects and school, but it became a little different ever since I went to Korea for exchange. Javin didn't study in the same school as me, so I was always in the gym alone. Since then, gym became a quiet time for me to just relax and reflect. I always feel it's easier to connect to my inner self when I exercise. Physically, I am still experimenting a lot and finding out more about my body and how it responds to exercise, but I am learning slowly! (:

Off to meet Javin and my friends.