Self

I've been driving a lot recently, to meet-ups with friends, to school, to pick people, to run errands... And I have to say that I have cultivated a liking for driving. I never thought I would see the day that I start to enjoy driving because I used to find it unnecessarily stressful, especially when there are many cars and when the roads are complicated. However, it has become a way for me to relax while listening/singing to songs on the radio. I particularly like long smooth drives on expressways when I can see a lot of the sky. It's somehow very therapeutic. Anything that has to do with music and scenery is generally therapeutic to me. This song, Magic by Coldplay, is a new track I managed to catch during the drive home today. I really like it and it has a little of that "The XX" vibe to it. Helped me to relax and collect my thoughts after a heavy morning.

I guess we should never be too quick to define who we are as people. Humans are prone to judging, including ourselves, and we tend to think of ourselves as certain people, sometimes underestimating ourselves, sometimes overestimating ourselves. When we cannot figure out who we are, we say that we are facing an identity crisis because we absolutely need to know who we are. I wonder how important this is and whether it would be better for us to let go of our attachment to the notion of self. We define our ideal selves in so many ways that some people struggle when their beliefs change. People change with experience; that's common. People resist change; that's common too. If we open ourselves up to changing, there will be so many more ways to live this life.

midweek Korean music fix

If you feel...


R&B/swaggy/Kpop

 Electronic/pop


Ballad/emo (haha)

Hush by Miss A

I heard this song on the radio while driving home a while back and it's been stuck in my mind since then. Sorry all non-Kpop fans, but maybe you can click the play button and give it a chance? It's really catchy. I know Suzy is insanely popular and her face was literally everywhere when I was in Seoul, but my favourite is Fei <3

"… Uh… Who is who?"

Ending this post lest I reveal too much of my fangirl side. Evil people might use that against me one day.

Say Something by Alex and Sierra

This was so beautiful in so many ways; so beautiful that it almost brought me to tears

Do What U Want

I am so addicted to this. I'm not a Lady Gaga fan because I find her antics strange at times. I remember she dressed up as a piece of meat or something right? But she's really passionate and talented and I love this!! I think it's my favourite song from her. I love the pop/disco feel at some points.

Myriad Monday

I'm feeling so strange right now. I can feel something in me, but I can't pinpoint what it is exactly that I'm feeling. Is it one emotion or is it many at once? The strangest thing is that I don't even know why. Maybe it's the time of the month, but it has been so long since I've felt this way. As usual, whenever I can't address all these undefined emotions in me, that I try so hard to figure out but fail to do so, I drown myself in music.

At least I ate my favourite egg tart today. It's really THE BEST egg tart in Singapore. To me at least. It's not the portugese type with the flaky pastry, but like pie crust. I don't know if you get what I mean. For whoever's interested, it's Pancake King at 727 Ang Mo Kio Avenue 6.

Omg the semester is ending which means graduation is another semester nearer and I still don't really know what I am going to do with my life except get married and earn money to give to my parents and drink oat milk everyday. Of course finding a job is one thing, but a job is a job and what you want to do is what you want to do. Then again, what you want to do may not be what you are good at #findingmeproblems #whoami

I just watched a reality TV show of this blogger who travels around Korea by herself and I can totally relate to her because I faced almost the same frustrations when I was there during exchange. I also learnt a lot during my stay there and have been living life a little differently ever since my return. My family thinks that I'm really different now. Some people made negative comments about her on YouTube and all, but I think she's really funny. This idea of writing an email to her flashed across my mind for a split second but I realised I might seem freaky.

Have an awesome week sweetpeas

Deezy Daisy (Oxford Remix) by Portland

Here's a song to celebrate the weekend! Enjoy your Saturday lovelies~