Shine

Shining bright like a diamond (hahaha...... feeling lame today) I got this cap at some flea held by design students in Hongdae. I think they were fashion students.

I really miss Seoul. Their youths are so full of life and energy. I feel like youths here are more bogged down by academics, especially those in university. I've heard of Korea having the same, if not a more, competitive culture in school so I asked my Korean classmate and apparently it's true but once they get to university everyone and everything is more relaxed. That must be how I managed to score well there despite skipping classes and enjoying life there... When I was young, adults (relatives, parents' friends, teachers etc) always told me that university will be a walk in the park so we only have to study hard until JC, but I was so cheated!! ): Anyway maybe it was true, but things have already changed. What happened?

Okay I need to get back to work after not doing work for more than a day.

Myriad Monday

I'm feeling so strange right now. I can feel something in me, but I can't pinpoint what it is exactly that I'm feeling. Is it one emotion or is it many at once? The strangest thing is that I don't even know why. Maybe it's the time of the month, but it has been so long since I've felt this way. As usual, whenever I can't address all these undefined emotions in me, that I try so hard to figure out but fail to do so, I drown myself in music.

At least I ate my favourite egg tart today. It's really THE BEST egg tart in Singapore. To me at least. It's not the portugese type with the flaky pastry, but like pie crust. I don't know if you get what I mean. For whoever's interested, it's Pancake King at 727 Ang Mo Kio Avenue 6.

Omg the semester is ending which means graduation is another semester nearer and I still don't really know what I am going to do with my life except get married and earn money to give to my parents and drink oat milk everyday. Of course finding a job is one thing, but a job is a job and what you want to do is what you want to do. Then again, what you want to do may not be what you are good at #findingmeproblems #whoami

I just watched a reality TV show of this blogger who travels around Korea by herself and I can totally relate to her because I faced almost the same frustrations when I was there during exchange. I also learnt a lot during my stay there and have been living life a little differently ever since my return. My family thinks that I'm really different now. Some people made negative comments about her on YouTube and all, but I think she's really funny. This idea of writing an email to her flashed across my mind for a split second but I realised I might seem freaky.

Have an awesome week sweetpeas

The past week or so

1. So the biggest thing that happened this week was spraining my ankle. I went to a Chinese doctor and did acupuncture for the first time in my life. I don't have phobia of needles so it wasn't bad, I thought it was pretty shiok actually haha! I was kinda bummed out over my ankle because I was afraid I couldn't fulfil my upcoming responsibilities. I was supposed to do some shooting/filming earlier this week for my newest commitment and at that time I was one of the two who were shortlisted for a print ad (which I didn't get anyway... but so close!) so I thought I wouldn't be able to do the ad. Plus my weekly shoot with MGP (but stocks have not arrived so no shoot this week). I had to cancel on the shoot/filming, but I took the time to work on my projects so all's good.
2. I've a current oat obsession. I went to the supermarket that day and I bought organic rolled oats, an oat drink, oat cookies and, the best discovery ever, Magnolia's oat milk. To add to my oat collection at home. I love Magnolia's oat milk. It reminds me of the cereal milk I used to drink in Korea.
3. Speaking of which, I miss Korea so much. It's strange because I never ever thought I would miss it. Not that I hated Korea, but I missed home so much while I was there. Guess the grass is always greener on the other side.
4. I still love Singapore, but school is awful. I wish I could say that I love school, I really do, but I can't. I could love school. I love learning, but I hate all the negative competitive energy all around. Education just felt different after secondary school.
5. I've been thinking about life lately. If I retire at 65, and pass on at 85 (the average age Singaporean women live until), what am I going to do for 20 years? Besides looking after my beautiful grandchildren of course :') I thought about the possibility of living for too long and why we all want to live for so long. It sparked a whole train of thoughts which is too long-winded for me to type out.
6. I found out that fries are healthier than potato chips! Yay another reason to feel better after eating seaweed shaker fries. Still, it's just the lesser of two evils, just like wholemeal and white bread, so I really need to watch this shaker fries habit.
7. Four more weeks of school!
8. You are pretentious and I don't need your fakeness

Daddy's shirt

I've always wanted a pretty shirtdress but never got down to getting one, so that day I just took Daddy's shirt. It's a tad short but I wore shorts underneath. I guess leggings could work too. Been loving light shades of blue lately.

Star-spangled banner

One of my favourite snapbacks (:

What my tee says doesn't hold... Hahaha. Somehow after returning, I feel like life is so precious and not go with the normal flow anymore. I want to do as much as I can. I've talked to friends who feel just as jaded as I do about school so I guess I am not the only one feeling sick of studying. Learning is one thing and studying is another. I honestly wonder how it's like to grow up in a different environment, like in Europe or the States or maybe even... Africa? (Speaking of which, I really want to go to Africa! I wish I could roll around the savanna with the lions) I am really proud of how eager Singaporeans are to keep getting better, but I just wonder if we could somehow strike a balance. Thankfully, I don't feel the competitiveness as much this semester. Or maybe I somehow found a way to detach myself from it. I placed a lot of importance on studies during the first half of my education years, but now I just feel like there are other things that I want to do too. This semester I have taken up a few other commitments outside school and I am still finding the balance...

A quick and random update

It's been a while since I've done some reflection on this space and I guess today is the day that I will finally do so, because I told myself to try to stop at least once a month, not to smell the roses like everyone says, but for a self catch-up session.

So it's already October and wow time flies as fast as I can type this sentence. It's been two-and-a-half months since I returned to Singapore, but it feels like at least four. I'm also approximately halfway through my semester, which means that I am closer to examinations. That doesn't bother me much though because after exams there will be winter vacation! It is going to be one exciting end-of-the-year.

Lately, I've been pretty impatient and there are so many things that I really look forward to in the near future. Since I came back from Seoul, I decided to be more proactive and actually take steps to do something with my life in hope of making it more fruitful/meaningful. So far, things are falling into place and I couldn't be happier. I still struggle to find a balance between everything that is happening (and what I have planned for), but I will face everything with a strong heart bursting with enthusiasm and energy, taking one thing at a time. Hopefully, everything will go according to plan.

Anyway, this is pretty strange but I've been into being unhealthy these days. I don't know if it's because I don't have much time to exercise anymore so I only go to the gym once a week (as opposed to two to three times a week, even four sometimes, back in Seoul and before that too), resulting in me feeling lazy to go to the gym. I think it has been years since I've felt lazy to exercise. It has also been years since I've eaten unhealthy food regularly. I never really used to eat much fried/oily/fatty food much because I just don't fancy it and sometimes it makes me feel sick but recently I've been craving roti prata or carrot cake or anything fried almost every day, and I fulfill my cravings. I have so much fried food I wake up with a sore throat everyday. Is there something wrong with me? Don't give me answers like "you've been healthy for too long so now you're going crazy" hahaha I am serious I will ignore you for life

There were more things I thought about this week but it is three in the morning so I am forcing myself to sleep. So much for adjusting my body clock...

Seoul: Bukchon Village Part 1

I think this was one of Javin and I's first tourist activities in Seoul. Perspiring in my own home makes me miss winter a little. Just a little.